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[Majick]

Dear Journal,

Another day, another entry!

Sorry the updates are sooo sporatic, but life tends to be busy, especially when you're a Doctor!  I got promoted and moved over to the Belladonna Cove Hospital with Chris, so things have been hectic.

But, let's back track a little, shall we?

For starters, Derek and Jill aren't dating anymore, one day it was really noisey, so I went outside to see what was going on, and there they were, Derek and Jill that is, fighting!

I had to scold Isaiah, who was standing by cheering the fight on.  Like those two needed any kind of additional encouragement, sheesh.  Gavin just stood by in shock; he'd been raised that a man should never lay a hand on a woman unless it's in complete self-defence; and we all know that in these fights, Derek is the one who starts them, so it's Jill defending herself each and every time

The days drew closer to when our little girl would be in our arms and our home.  We hadn't told Gavin yet that we'd decided to adopt a mixed-race child.  Her mother was Black and her father was White; but she was beautiful and such a sweetheart!

Gavin spent a lot of time in the bedroom that would be for his little sister, straightening the sheets, dusting and vacuuming.  He wanted everything to be perfect.  I could still hear him crying softly at night; he misses Nikhil as much as we do, I know.  But he can't bring himself to show it in front of us.

Then the day came; our little girl would be knocking on our door any time now.  We decided to have a Social Worker bring her to the new home, so that she could adjust slowly.  I was nervous!  Chris and Gavin were so excited, and we were going to have a more complete family once again.

We had Gavin leave the room when the Van pulled up out front.  We wanted to give Jordan a chance to get her barings before bringing out her new older brother.  We told her about the son we'd lost, and how Gavin was so excited to have a little sister.  She was so shy!  But she smiled, and nodded.  She was excited too.  Then we called Gavin out into the living room, and had him sit on the couch with Jordan.

He seemed a bit surprised at first; I don't think he was expecting Jordan to be mixed-race, and it took him but a moment to adjust.  After a few moments of just staring at each other, Gavin made the first move.

"Hi Jordan, I'm Gavin.  I'm your big brother ..."  "H-hello Gavin ... it is ... I'm happy to meet you." We all sat and talked for a long while, learning a lot about Jordan's previous life with her biological family.  She was the youngest of five kids, her mother was Black and her father was White, three of the five came out very dark skinned, Jordan and one other sibling came out very light skinned, but only Jordan got the brown hair from her father.  She was the only girl, too.

Her parents married young, because they were pregnant with her oldest brother, Jeremy, and the family was not able to support all the kids.  Jeremy, who was over 18 now moved out the first chance he got, taking two of their siblings with him by court order.  Jordan and the sibling only two years older than her had to remain with the parents.  But, the parents were devorcing, and things got violent.  Soon, her own mother was beating her regularly, calling her names and forcing her to sleep in the furnace room in the basement.

Her brother went to live with their father, but was soon also taken by the Social Worker and placed into a new home, a foster home.  Jordan expressed a deep desire to not end up in foster care, but rather that she wanted a perminent family.  The court favored Jordan's request, and that's how she ended up at the Adoption Agency awaiting a family.

By the end of the evening, we all had a better understanding of Jordan's life; and we could tell it was going to take some time to convince her that we were going to love her no matter what.  Even Gavin had pulled her close and was snuggling her and showing her affection by the end of the night.  And we were so proud!  And Jordan seemed beside herself, she was so thrilled!

We decided to take a picture of Gavin and Jordan together, I made a copy to put specifically into this journal.

Things are finally calming down, and as Christmas approached Jordan was behaving much more calmly and enjoyed group activities.  At night, she and I would dance, while Chris would look on and smile proudly at "the two lady loves of his life", hehe!  Gavin would often read to Jordan before bed, and she loved that.

Nathan and his family had been away visiting Mary's mother, who was ill, and when they returned, we went over to introduce Jordan to her some-what half-brother isaiah.  He took to her immediately, and she to him.  She loved her extended family, Mary was especailly fond of the girl; she'd always wanted a daughter, it turns out.  Which is why it was so devistating that she decided to get herself done so she couldn't have anymore children.  She had hoped to try once more for a girl.

Mary bought all kinds of things for Jordan for Cchristmas; a ton of new clothes, some make-up, CDs, movies, and even a $150.oo gift card to the mall.  I actually heard Jordan crying that night, as she prayed to God, she had never known such generosity before.  And she finally felt at home with us all.

The day after Christmas, Gavin took Jordan outside to play in the snow, and they decided to build a snowman together. They worked at it for hours, but never finished it, as Isaiah, being a boy, came over and dove head first into the pile of would-be-snowman, completely destroying it!  But, Gavin and Jordan thought it was hilarious, and a snowball fight erupted instead.

After several hours of playing in the snow, they came inside, and we made some hot cocoa.  This was the best Christmas I had ever experienced; I had a wonderful Husband, a handsome and healthy growing son, and a beautiful and smart little girl.  Life was finally starting to look a lot less bleak, and a lot more hopeful.