What are you doing right now?

[Cassie]

I blocked him because I was stressed and he was digging himself a deeper hole. You know when you just need time to not hear all the crap?

I'll be 100% honest, I knew he wasn't a virgin, he asked me if I was and I told him I was a virgin and then he admitted he wasn't, I wasn't bothered because obviously it seems like half the kids in Britain have done it by the time they're 16, like you said. Maybe more tbh. I asked him how many people h's slept with, he said 3, I'm believing that to be still true as of now. I didn't like that fact but I put it past me. I didn't even contemplate the fact he might be a dad or anything, naturally you wouldn't, would you? Least I wouldn't. He's a good guy at the end of the day, not the Chavy teenage dad type.

So yeah, we knew each other's 'backgrounds'. =P I would have asked pretty soon if we'd not already discussed it anyway. And I've only been going out with him since Valentine's Day. So I wasn't considering, erm, moving to that level with him for at least another month or two so I know I'm 100% comfortable. He was talking about doing it on my birthday night, which sort of freaked me out, I was like 'I'll do it when I'm ready'. O.o He pretends he doesn't pressure girls, which he doesn't really, but he does it on the sly IMO, I'm perceptive of that.

I was at his house today, just chilling out watching TV like we normally do... sad I know but that's us for you. =P He'd told me he'd got something big to tell me before I went round, but he didn't sound unhappy about it or anything, so I wasn't really fazed. He just spoke to me while I was at his, said he had to tell me something I'm going to get mad about... and literally I just cut off from there. I could go on for ever but I'll spare you. I didn't stay around long after he told me, so half the conversation has took place on MSN. I simply did a lot of yelling about why he didn't tell me sooner at his house. On MSN he's sort of opened up a bit now I'll give home 2 seconds to actually get his side out. About why he didn't tell me, what happened with his ex, his relationship with the kid, the whole mess...

So basically. Meh. I just need to think. And be with my friends who I can trust. <3

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